Losing it!

I really hate when lazy people make rank or are already of a higher rank, ESPECIALLY on deployment. We are here to get a job done and everyone should be busting their asses to complete the mission, if not the overall then the daily mission. All three of our staff share the same responsibilities and this tool thinks he is untouchable. Dude you are one rank above me and I don't play these games, get your ass up and work.

This isn't even my fricken job I come to work, of course I am lazy and tired at times, and I try to earn my paycheck everyday. I bust my ass even though I could fight to get into another department any time I want. This is his fricken job and he takes advantage of my motivation. I kid you not, I have completed about 90% of the work that has been done since I have started in the CQ and this dude tries to sit me down the other day and explain to me how I am a dirt bag.

What? Yea.... he TRIED. I wasn't having that, I don't give a f*ck if you are a higher rank, EVERYONE knows what I do and how I work. I waited until he was done explaining then once he was done I sat my plate down, lunch, and I took a seat, stared at him right in the eyes and said:

First of all, I think you are talking about yourself and not me. I f*ckin' bust my ass here and everyone knows it. Secondly I haven't seen you lift a finger for this department since I have worked here. I have busted my ass and I mean blood and sweat busted my ass and I don't even have to... I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO. This isn't my job but I have integrity so you can take all this bullshit you are trying to justify and shove it up your ass. I don't f*cking appreciate your accusations and the way I work is accompanied with a purpose. Granted we don't need two people to do our job but the only reason why I take another with me is so they can watch supplies and what not while I complete other tasks. (We use a truck to pick up mail and do laundry and pick up supplies and so on and so forth) You can't trust any of these mother f*ckers on base so I don't want anything to get stolen. Don't flatter yourself dude I don't need you f*ckers with me, I can run this place on my own... that means without you. You are useless to me.

There were some more words but I can assure you that what ever was said that I was in the right. I may have been emotional but he had nothing to say to me when I was done. Normally I don't get that angry but when I have shitty worker trying to explain to an amazing worker that I am a dirt bag, that is when I lose it.

Dragging ass...

Yea that's me... this morning... dragging ass. I feel so tired it's insane. Walking to work was okay but once I got here and sat down it's like the subtlety of the workspace is forcing my eyes to close. I feel like being at home and having a cup of coffee with the ol' wifey and daughter and relaxing on the couch with the ambience of the television on low. In all due time, as every day ends it's one day closer to the end of the deployment. :)

I was just thinking of how my RACK was going to look, yes my rack... quit it with the dirty thoughts you silly savage you. My ribbon rack I wear on my chest. It will be comprised of the following --

• Navy and Marine Corps Achievement Medal
• Overseas Service
• Afghanistan Campaign
• NATO medal

So it should be looking like this

 

Pretty spiffy huh!? :)

Anyway I gotta get started for the day. 

Being grateful

Well now that some people have seen my artwork and what I have been designing for our front doors I have been getting requests left and right. I am tasked to design the Task Force Med South flag, which I am almost done with, along with personal requests like tattoos and peoples' kids. Some people are actually going to pay me, $50 per drawing -- how did I get myself into this again? Haha. Making extra money... not so bad. Practicing on my art and technique... pretty neat. Making the time fly by... the best part.

Once I am able to grab a camera I will take some snapshots of what I have done and will through them up here for you to view... if you can handle it. ;)

My advice for the day, which I even put in an e-mail, is this:

Don't take the little things for granted. We are lucky that we are able to perform such tasks without thinking or knowing how life is without them. Simple materialistic things like running water and heat. Next time you do anything just think how life would be like without whatever utensil, tool, or thing you are using to manipulate and or complete that task. Be grateful.

Attitude, and I dont mean by AAF

It's just one of those damn days. A gloomy day in Kandahar. It's rainy, muddy, overcast, and I have been in a terrible mood; giving people attitude n' shit. I don't know, maybe I am ready to leave. Most of my attitude derives from being fed up with all the small talk and becoming less talk and strictly work, unless I have something I need or have something to talk to you about. If I don't need to talk to you then grab your shit and get out... unless of course I like you, then you can chill if you want to get away from work or have a smoke (not me mom).

Anyway I have been thinking about purchasing or asking permission from the wifey to purchase a new headset... my head phones broke and I would like to talk to my wife on skype without having to bend all the way over in my chair and into a cubby to silently explain that I am going to bed to my laptop screen. What do I have in mind? Actually quite awesome, great quality for a great price.

Not bad. It probably won't happen, which is entirely okay -- I just want to come home. 

Wish wash, pish posh, GTFO.

I really dispise unofficial official word. I was informed today that our admin guys misread information on estimated dates of retreiving our reliefs and that it may hinder a lot of people from leaving at an earlier date, which by the way was told we would. As far as I know and I keep telling people is that I don't know and now I really don't know... I just hope my relief stays in training and gets here at that earlier date to relieve me like planned. There are a lot of variables you have to deal with when sending people on deployment and I think I have been pretty hard charging and positive through everything so I hope I don't get screwed. I hope that the estimated dates of departure stay the same. I hate the up-in-the-air masquerade party with wish-washy decisions... I wish it could be more concrete.

So, Shane, what are you saying?

I know it sounds bad but to be honest I could be coming home early or I could be coming home when I was originally suppose to. So don't freak out because it still could be earlier than when I am suppose to be back. My morale is being tugged left and right because of all this, maybe I should just go with the flow and see where it all ends up. All in all I just hope I can get back safe and sound with all my senses, limbs, and phalanges.

Say it with me -- This is bullshit.

Home sick

Ya, it's about that time where I just want to be home. I miss my family, my wife, I want to hold my little girl, which by the way is absolutely beautiful. Even the pediatrician said he had never seen a baby that beautiful. Yea.. yea I know... of course she is! Haha

Anyway what is on my mind right now?

• Well first thing is that I haven't worked out in four days and the last two days I had pizza for dinner so I am pretty sure I am going to get on that today. There's nothing like rigging up your own pull up bar with a makeshift crossfit routine.
• Should I drink my Monster now or later? If I have it now I won't be too dehydrated for my workout later whereas if I had it later it may hinder my performance so I think I just convinced myself to drink it now.
• My daughter is so gorgeous, I want to kiss her and watch her get annoyed from it... then kiss her again. I hope I will be a good father.
• I'm sick of listening to people who skate at work make up excuses for why they weren't where they were suppose to be or even why they just couldn't be found. If you ran to the exchange to buy food, just fricken say that's what you did... no big deal.
• We have so many supplies and I started and inventory, think I might finish it up today.
• Shit I need my iPod, left it under my pillow at the mods.
• My camera broke, I probably think about it once a day because there are some things I would like to take pictures of, oh well.
• Going home and visiting California. Last time I was home, i think, was for Francis's funeral so that puts me at about three years. Three years I haven't been back to my hometown.
• They had blueberry pancakes this morning for chow... not bad at all. These guys can cook when they want. Like for the Christmas meal -- phenomenal.

Well that is it for now, going to act like I am doing something right now.

Till next post.

 

Mi mui bonita bebe hija!

Update on Saturday, January 23, 2010 at 11:51PM by Shane

By the way, I don't know why my journal does this at times but when I make a new post it puts it under the old one. BOO

Rocket... Attack... and a message of love.

Wow it has been quite a while since this last rocket attack we had two nights ago. You best believe your ass that I quit playing my game and hit the deck hard as soon as the sirens screamed! The thoughts that run through your head before you hear the explosions are... hope. Hopefully this shit doesn't hit me. That's the only thing I am thinking of.

Anyway right now I am brought back into thought about how annoyed I was yesterday when the command tested the alarm system. They changed the voice who narrates the pre/post sirens to a British female and just the certain pitches in her voice, after listening to it 40 times, sent shivers of annoyance down my spine every time. Like... UGH here it comes again! Yep... that was it. "STAND... BY..... For.... A.... MESSAGE............. FROM THE....." Literally like 5 second pauses between each word. Just really got on my nerves yesterday; got on my nerves to the point where I had to stop working to take a breather because the alarm system is around the entire base through loud ass speakers.

Anyway on a positive note, I recieved a package, actually 2! First one was from my uncle who sent me some long jons/thermals, I haven't tried them yet just because I have been busy but I am excited to, so I send many thanks for keeping me in mind! Second was a package from my dad again! :) And to come back at what was told to Lauren -- Dad I really do enjoy your packages, like I have said before the amount of thought, selflessness, and love that goes into your packages are not to be forgotten and are very appreciated. I have 12 untitled DVD's that I am excited to watch, all I know is that one of them is Night at the Museum 2 and I really wanted to see that. So dad yes I love your packages.

I love you all and now it is time for me to get started at work.

By the way I am okay... I'll be coming home sooner than you know.